Before Jesus Changed My Life
I honestly can say I did not know Jesus at all. I knew of him but had absolutely no knowledge of what he did for the world. I didn’t know what the world provided us were bad things, so I was freely living in the world. The world gave me lots of moments of having to fill voids constantly. Whether it was seeking love, care, trust, etc. The search felt like an everlasting emptiness and the cycle was getting worse and overwhelming. It often made me numb because I was so used to feeling just temporary happiness, and never long-lasting joy. Because I didn’t know what I was looking for to fill those voids, it was a thousand times harder to express how I felt and why I felt that way. I just remember being on a roller coaster of repetitive inconsistency.
How Jesus Changed My Life
I started picking up my Bible in October 2022, my sophomore year of college. Although there were slumps where I wouldn’t apply to my faith I definitely still tried, but it took me 5 months to know Jesus and about 1 year and a few months to build a relationship with Jesus. When I first had the realization it was a summer service back at home this July, I felt the Holy Spirit through worship. The feeling was indescribable, I had a knot in my throat, and I was holding back tears, but I could not tell you why. My heart was so heavy. But before service, I prayed that he would send me a message or speak to me because I needed him desperately. Then I heard God speaking to me through that service, and he told me to give myself to him and trust him. My pastor went over Numbers 14:1-9. My pastor said to us “If God got us this far he’ll get us through it all, trust the Lord. The best is yet to come, God is with you”. I continued to attend services and do more by giving free time to God willingly. In the process, I felt this switch flip, and by the end of July two weeks after meeting Jesus he flipped my whole “perfect” world, and it HURT. He did a whole 360, and I lost myself. I prayed and prayed for him to take away the hurt, but he did not at least not for a while, so I just struggled for a month. Yet I kept praying and remaining patient waiting for him to show up for me, and he did the best thing he could do, and that was flipping my world back right up, which is where I felt my transformation. This entire time I did not know what I needed or was searching for, but he revealed it to me and woke me up in such a difficult way to show me that it was him I needed.
My Life After Jesus Saved Me
When Jesus saved me, you could definitely see the transformation. I felt as if a new me was born. I finally found my real joy through Christ. I gave up worldly things and finally accepted that God set those boundaries to protect me from getting hurt because he cares for me. He is where my search ended. He loves me unconditionally and chooses me over and over and over. I found trust in him with the way my life unravels and the process. I trust that he will light my path till the day I can be with him. When I decided to live the way he wanted me to live, he brought me stability, peace, and joy. I am on a peak right now. He gave me a new job with a sister who loves Jesus with me and mentors me. He helped me get out of slumps when I would dig my own grave. He gave me hope and faith for the answers I look for and showed me that only he can provide them for me. He did so much more than dying for my sins, he saved me! Experiencing God and his graces makes me want to share my story with everyone. I learned to compare my faith to a race to him. “Die to live”, sometimes you have to die just a little throughout the race to get to the finish line. Even though I was chasing worldly things that would hurt me, Jesus was chasing me and giving me the strength in this race that I am running, and now I am chasing him because ever since I met him he has made my life a thousand times better and I could never thank him enough. I will forever Live life for the mission and the Glory of God. The world is temporary and Jesus is forever. Romans 8:39 says, “nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”