Before Jesus Changed My Life
My life before meeting Jesus was very lonely, very selfish, I tended to use idol personalities because I didn’t like who I was. I listened to dark music, watched horror movies, looked for the next level of gore and ways to hurt people, even laughing at people being harmed and having a keen interest in it. I was addicted to video games, as a distraction from the life God wanted me to live, yet entering another fake reality. I watched porn to get satisfaction, because the devil was telling me I wasn’t attractive and worthy of a special partner. I was unambitious, even though I worked hard I chose the easy way out of ever going for my dreams. It was lonely times, yet quiet, and now that I look back, I can see how God was working on my heart during those times. I was solely concerned about myself and cared for no one and even had little focus on my relationship with my wife. I spent money on things I didn’t need. I would hurry to buy and update things around me, knowing I would suffer for adding more debt on my back. Satan was always telling me to be alone, be comfortable, you won’t succeed in your ambitions, and I was weak enough to listen and obey. It frustrated my wife, frustrated my family. I kept trying to make them happy but these things looking back, I can see how God began stirring in my heart, and began opening my eyes to the reality that this path I was on would lead to destruction.
How Jesus Changed My Life
The way Jesus brought me from death to life was a miracle I no longer have an ear for the music I once listened to and called my identity. I sold things that that once were my idols including video game consoles, and electronics, old things from the past that could have had an unholy symbol or idols. God has given me new desires, and I no longer have desires to keep materialistic things or the draw of social media, which Satan used to distract and addict me. It's as if before Christ I had a blurry vision with a gray bolder blinding in my eyes, and through Christ’s work in my heart I see clearly and everything looks more colorful and vibrant. He rid me of my ego and idolizing others to be and to focus on being myself and being with my wife and family. I now desire to please him instead of always looking for approval from man. Colossians 3:2: "set your minds on things above, not on earthly things."
My Life After Jesus Saved Me
My life after being changed by Jesus and carrying his cross with me is lighter. I’m less judgemental, and I now have peace.I find myself smiling knowing he’s with me always. I read my Bible every day, which is my daily bread. I arm myself daily, putting on the “armor of God” to go into each day. I have freed my home from old things I used to hold onto and am no longer distracted by keeping it in my presence. God has given me new desires to be more connected to my wife, and to lead my family as God desires. Prior to God changing my heart, my wife and I tried getting pregnant for a few months. Looking back I can see God’s provision in this situation as I was not ready to be a father while I was chasing sin and being focused on myself. We’ve had many signs from him and if that’s not god, I am lying to myself. I have come to truly believe and fear the one and only true God - the father, son, and holy spirit. This has been made possible by the sacrifice of Jesus Christ. Colossians 1:17: Jesus Christ is before all things, and "in him all things hold together"